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I wouldn't be surprised at all if the reaping was rigged. The games themselves too...

[Armin keeps his voice very low as he says this, a bit more concerned with Peacekeepers than Eren, even from this far away...]

Eren. [Armin pauses their walk, turning to face his friend. He inclines his head, one corner of his mouth lifted up in a smile that asks for Eren to indulge him a moment.]

You're passionate. I get it. I love that about you. [But...

[He glances away, just a moment. Then, he turns back, and nudges his friend with his elbow.]

It's not such a bad thing that I don't want you to die, is it? I'm not sure you'd be so keen on me saying the same sorts of things.

[There's a weighted pause, then.]

If I were to get chosen...I can't help but think that the only thing on my mind would be survival. Maybe that's selfish, but...

[ Eren stops because Armin does. He catches that look on the other boy's face, that little smile. Eren isn't quick to smile these days, but he tries to return it a little. ]

I don't want you to die either, not in the Games or anywhere else.

[ He thinks of the mines, the expectation that they eventually become miners. He sees it as another form of slavery to Capitol, breaking themselves and their bodies for the people in their shining privileged city to keep their privilege secure.

He hates all of them, bleeding them dry for generations. ]

The only way to win is to be selfish. If you had to go in that arena, you have to fight. Who cares if it's selfish?

[ Eren's need to win in the Games is a mix of selfishness and the burning love for Armin, Mikasa, their friends, the idea of freedom. ]

If I get chosen, I'll do whatever it takes to come back to you.

[ Whatever it takes. ]

Mm. ["The only way to win is to be selfish." Armin nods.] Yeah. You're right about that...

I just wonder how selfish I could be, if it came to that. [He doesn't want to kill anyone...He can barely imagine it.

[He takes Eren's hand in his. It could easily be a friendly gesture. Something reassuring, a firm grip. And he smiles wider now; it's a false one, but most people don't pick up on that - feigned confidence in the face of complete uncertainty.]

Neither of us will be chosen. So just stick around instead, okay?

[A little squeeze to Eren's palm.]

[ Eren is already a murderer, though he has never confessed this to Armin. He doesn't want Armin to look at him differently; besides, if anyone knew, anyone heard, then no one would be safe. He'd killed to save Mikasa when they were younger, and he would do it again.

Would it be harder to kill people his own age or younger? Maybe. But he really does mean he'd do anything.

Without thought, Eren's fingers slide between Armin's. Neither of them is reassured, probably, but he still wants to stay like this. He'd pulled his hand away earlier, awkward, almost shy. He trips over his own feelings when he's not careful.

That smile is bullshit and he knows it, but who is he to call that out? ]

Yeah. It will be fine.

[ He says it with confidence and means it as best as he can. The clock ticks closer to the Reaping and all they can do is show up and hope. ]

[Eren's fingers, entangled with his own. Armin's heart lifts.

[He nods, appearing satisfied for the moment - only appearing. But his smile becomes genuine when he looks at his friend - after that, a bit teasing, because he's giving Eren a once-over.]

I guess you won't be getting dressed up this year either, huh?

[ Eren snorts at the question. ]

Fuck that. They wanna drag me off to die, I'm gonna wear comfortable clothes.

[ He knows as well as anyone that it doesn't work that way. The Capitol has its bullshit rituals and they'll all get paraded around in clothes that cost more money than anyone in District 12 can even fathom. But for now, he can say things that don't matter. ]

You shouldn't either. They boss us around enough.

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