[ Eren is surprised at the admission for a moment. But if they're not enemies, if they're...whatever...then there's no reason not to say it. It's a weakness, one Eren is aware of. He exploited it once. He can't say he never would again. But still, an admission is a hard thing. ]
People aren't meant to know the future.
[ He would know! ]
But maybe someday I'll tell you, if you ask me.
[ He's not teasing or being coy. He's purposefully held off telling Reiner things. It's selfish and he knows that. His reasons aren't all out of care. It's not all selfishness but that's certainly a factor. ]
You don’t have to do things because they're easier for other people. You can live for you.
[ "Maybe someday," huh? That sounds good to Reiner. ]
All right. I'll keep it in mind.
[ As for the rest… What would living for himself even look like? Reiner has spent his whole life giving and giving, turning himself into what other people want and need. Even now, he's trying to be "Reiner" for Gabi's sake, not his own. How would he even go about figuring out how he wants to live?
"It doesn't matter," he'd told Hijikata. What Reiner wants ceased to matter a long time ago. He still believes that.
But he still wants. He wants this thing with Eren. He wants to not have to kill his friends. So… ]
Maybe someday.
[ If he can ever figure out how to do it.
Reiner shifts topics, then, bringing up something that he recently saw but has yet to investigate: ]
By the way, they're teaching some new type of magic at the guilds. [ A magic that requires trust, if Eren saw that phone notification. ] No idea what it does, but it takes two people to wield it. Do you want to try it out?
[ It's not to say Eren will never use information against Reiner, but he's trying to (be better) not be an asshole based on old wounds. He told Jean you can be friends with someone and not forgive them.
Eren is so bad at forgiveness. But he meant what he said, both to Jean then and Reiner now.
They are no longer enemies. They're important to each other. Whatever comes next comes next, and it's terrifying after all this time to not know the ending. ]
I think I saw something about that. Yeah. Let's try it.
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People aren't meant to know the future.
[ He would know! ]
But maybe someday I'll tell you, if you ask me.
[ He's not teasing or being coy. He's purposefully held off telling Reiner things. It's selfish and he knows that. His reasons aren't all out of care. It's not all selfishness but that's certainly a factor. ]
You don’t have to do things because they're easier for other people. You can live for you.
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All right. I'll keep it in mind.
[ As for the rest… What would living for himself even look like? Reiner has spent his whole life giving and giving, turning himself into what other people want and need. Even now, he's trying to be "Reiner" for Gabi's sake, not his own. How would he even go about figuring out how he wants to live?
"It doesn't matter," he'd told Hijikata. What Reiner wants ceased to matter a long time ago. He still believes that.
But he still wants. He wants this thing with Eren. He wants to not have to kill his friends. So… ]
Maybe someday.
[ If he can ever figure out how to do it.
Reiner shifts topics, then, bringing up something that he recently saw but has yet to investigate: ]
By the way, they're teaching some new type of magic at the guilds. [ A magic that requires trust, if Eren saw that phone notification. ] No idea what it does, but it takes two people to wield it. Do you want to try it out?
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Eren is so bad at forgiveness. But he meant what he said, both to Jean then and Reiner now.
They are no longer enemies. They're important to each other. Whatever comes next comes next, and it's terrifying after all this time to not know the ending. ]
I think I saw something about that. Yeah. Let's try it.
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[ And so they do. ]