You can do more than move forward; you'll have to start trying to do better.
I know you can't change the future any more than you already have, by staying here and therefore not causing it to happen. But at some point you'll have to be sorry for what you did, and try to make amends.
I'm not saying you don't already, it seems like you do. [ At least, from Marco's perspective. ] Reiner can't change what he did. I didn't forgive him. But he wants to do better, and that's what makes me what to be his friend. If that makes sense?
You know there's no making amends for it, right? I haven't done it when I'm from, but a bunch of people already lived through it.
[ This is the weirdest thing to consider, since he has done it in his future memories, and at this point there's not a functional difference. Well, maybe at the end of it he'll have filled in the holes, all the things he hasn't yet figured out or learned. But the outcome, no matter what he does, is always the same.
The world in exchange for a handful of lives and Eren's humanity.
Also he's just not sorry! He's had years (lifetimes) to deal with this however he's going to deal with it. There are some people he might be sorry for. Those children in Liberio, refugees who were already treated like shit. Hange. Levi, at least on some level.
Eren cannot be sorry for the world. They were right to hate him and he knows it. ]
But I promised the captain I would be better. I am trying to do that.
[ As best he can, even if it's not always great. ]
It makes sense. I'll never forgive Reiner and them for what they did. I don't expect Reiner to forgive me. It doesn't matter, though. We're still
[ Shit, what are they? Enemies? Not now. Boyfriends? No, that seems like a silly word for it. (mathlady.gif) ]
You two understand each other, I think. One of the few who understand what it's like to... do that. Even if you haven't done it here yet.
[ Eren knew he'd eventually make the decision. Eren sharing the paths, that'd been a result of everything Eren decided to share with Reiner. It's not like he can judge them, either. He's cozied up quick to Galliard, who is from the same country that Reiner was sent from to attack them. ]
[ How can he, when he's been the same his whole life? He just didn't know it. (It's flawed logic; no one, not even Eren, is a static person. But he says this kind of shit all the time anyway.) ]
Reiner did. Annie. Bertholdt. Marley took kids so young. It fucked up my dad's first family like that.
[ He can recognise that Zeke's genocide against their own people is Zeke's own bullshit fault, but Grisha had made him feel like he didn't matter. That's on their dad. Eren's never excused Grisha for his actions either. (Eren has never really excused or forgiven anyone for anything.) ]
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I know you can't change the future any more than you already have, by staying here and therefore not causing it to happen. But at some point you'll have to be sorry for what you did, and try to make amends.
I'm not saying you don't already, it seems like you do. [ At least, from Marco's perspective. ] Reiner can't change what he did. I didn't forgive him. But he wants to do better, and that's what makes me what to be his friend. If that makes sense?
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[ This is the weirdest thing to consider, since he has done it in his future memories, and at this point there's not a functional difference. Well, maybe at the end of it he'll have filled in the holes, all the things he hasn't yet figured out or learned. But the outcome, no matter what he does, is always the same.
The world in exchange for a handful of lives and Eren's humanity.
Also he's just not sorry! He's had years (lifetimes) to deal with this however he's going to deal with it. There are some people he might be sorry for. Those children in Liberio, refugees who were already treated like shit. Hange. Levi, at least on some level.
Eren cannot be sorry for the world. They were right to hate him and he knows it. ]
But I promised the captain I would be better. I am trying to do that.
[ As best he can, even if it's not always great. ]
It makes sense. I'll never forgive Reiner and them for what they did. I don't expect Reiner to forgive me. It doesn't matter, though. We're still
[ Shit, what are they? Enemies? Not now. Boyfriends? No, that seems like a silly word for it. (mathlady.gif) ]
We still care about each other.
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[ Eren knew he'd eventually make the decision. Eren sharing the paths, that'd been a result of everything Eren decided to share with Reiner. It's not like he can judge them, either. He's cozied up quick to Galliard, who is from the same country that Reiner was sent from to attack them. ]
I care about him too. You both deserved better.
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[ How can he, when he's been the same his whole life? He just didn't know it. (It's flawed logic; no one, not even Eren, is a static person. But he says this kind of shit all the time anyway.) ]
Reiner did. Annie. Bertholdt. Marley took kids so young. It fucked up my dad's first family like that.
[ He can recognise that Zeke's genocide against their own people is Zeke's own bullshit fault, but Grisha had made him feel like he didn't matter. That's on their dad. Eren's never excused Grisha for his actions either. (Eren has never really excused or forgiven anyone for anything.) ]
You didn't decide to hate me either, huh?
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[ At the question though, well... ]
It wouldn't be my choice to make - I was already gone when you made your decision. I won't hate you here.
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[ He doesn't bother explaining it, and he won't, but he says things like this all the time. ]
For what it's worth, I'm glad you don't.