Eren Jaeger (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
dreamsofwings) wrote2021-07-13 03:17 am
dreamsofwings) wrote2021-07-13 03:17 am
ic contact;
text | audio | in person
text | audio | in person
Is it?
I haven't celebrated in a long time. It wasn't mourning either, just running out of time. Needing to hurry.
The last one this year, I didn't talk to anyone about it. It just happened. I shouldn't be alive but I am. It's weird.
You have time left though. We said we'd live, right? What do you want to do?
I haven't celebrated in a long time. It wasn't mourning either, just running out of time. Needing to hurry.
The last one this year, I didn't talk to anyone about it. It just happened. I shouldn't be alive but I am. It's weird.
You have time left though. We said we'd live, right? What do you want to do?
Yeah. You should try that sober too.
I don’t know. There were less of you here then. I didn't really know where I stood then with everyone. It doesn't really matter. Some of them can never know the significance of me living this long.
[ He's aware the math doesn't add up and that part about not knowing where he stands might seem well and he might be tipping his hand too far. But this is in text and Reiner is drunk anyway so whatever. ]
I don’t know. There were less of you here then. I didn't really know where I stood then with everyone. It doesn't really matter. Some of them can never know the significance of me living this long.
[ He's aware the math doesn't add up and that part about not knowing where he stands might seem well and he might be tipping his hand too far. But this is in text and Reiner is drunk anyway so whatever. ]
[ Reiner is indeed way too drunk to question Eren's words as much as he should. Maybe he'll reread it later, or something will spark a memory down the line. For now, he just frowns at the text, aware that he's missing something but unsure what the hell it is. ]
I really don't like our world's future
I really don't like our world's future
There's nothing to like about it.
[ But enough of that! ]
My birthday was months ago. Don’t you mean you want to celebrate yours?
[ But enough of that! ]
My birthday was months ago. Don’t you mean you want to celebrate yours?
[ He doesn't know what to say for a few minutes.
]
Okay. How?
]
Okay. How?
However you want. I can take you on an actual date. One where we don't get pissed off. We can pick a district neither of us knows well and walk around until we find a restaurant that smells good. You can eat something brand new. We can have ice cream cake. Did you know they sell ice cream cake? That's a luxury!
A real date? I've never been on a date.
Ice cream cake. Like it's both? That sounds amazing actually.
Ok. There's something I want to tell you in person anyway.
Ice cream cake. Like it's both? That sounds amazing actually.
Ok. There's something I want to tell you in person anyway.
Yeah you are. It's nothing bad. It's good actually. I'll tell you tomorrow.
Don’t get a hangover.
Don’t get a hangover.
The next evening, as promised, Eren meets Reiner outside the apartment building. He's not sure if Reiner actually will have a hangover. Hopefully…not? Whatever, not his problem. He can only be so nice.
He found time earlier that day to make cookies. The only ones he knows how to make are chocolate chip, so that will have to do. They don't look beautiful but they're not burned and they taste fine. He…made way too many, so he left some on the counter at home without any explanation whatsoever. If Levi doesn't eat them, Hange will probably wander in and eat them. No big deal.
Hopefully the cat doesn't suddenly discover a liking for chocolate chips.
He has the cookies in a paper bag which he awkwardly shoves at Reiner when the other boy appears.
"Here," is all he says.
He found time earlier that day to make cookies. The only ones he knows how to make are chocolate chip, so that will have to do. They don't look beautiful but they're not burned and they taste fine. He…made way too many, so he left some on the counter at home without any explanation whatsoever. If Levi doesn't eat them, Hange will probably wander in and eat them. No big deal.
Hopefully the cat doesn't suddenly discover a liking for chocolate chips.
He has the cookies in a paper bag which he awkwardly shoves at Reiner when the other boy appears.
"Here," is all he says.
Thankfully, Reiner managed to avoid a hangover, though how much of that is because he stopped drinking and how much is because he's a Titan is anyone's guess. He did not manage to avoid his humiliation at drunk texting everyone under the sun. (Hange! Levi! Other people he barely knows!) But he got an actual date with Eren out of it, so he's not complaining too much.
(How the hell did he manage to get an actual date? He has no idea. Gift horse, etc.)
Reiner is dressed a little nicer than usual, which translates as a button-down shirt with no knife on his belt. Not that either of them needs a knife for this to turn into a fight. The intent is there, though: Reiner is aiming for a night where they don't get pissed off. How successful he'll be remains to be seen.
Eren greets him with a bag shoved at him, which Reiner accepts gingerly, not wanting to crush whatever is inside.
"What is it?" he asks, curiously opening the bag. He peers inside and pauses, lips parting. "… These are for me?"
(How the hell did he manage to get an actual date? He has no idea. Gift horse, etc.)
Reiner is dressed a little nicer than usual, which translates as a button-down shirt with no knife on his belt. Not that either of them needs a knife for this to turn into a fight. The intent is there, though: Reiner is aiming for a night where they don't get pissed off. How successful he'll be remains to be seen.
Eren greets him with a bag shoved at him, which Reiner accepts gingerly, not wanting to crush whatever is inside.
"What is it?" he asks, curiously opening the bag. He peers inside and pauses, lips parting. "… These are for me?"
Eren, maybe naively, didn't dress like anything. He looks exactly the same as always, tshirt and dark jeans. Fashion sense? He doesn't know her. Maybe someday.
He also doesn't have a knife on him this time, but they both know that doesn't matter. He keeps his nails long these days to avoid having to bite, but...they're a threat just be existing. Eren isn't scared of that threat. But he's also not especially worried about it, not today. Is this a truce? It has to be, right? No one just goes on a date with an outright enemy. Probably.
Eren shrugs and looks off across the street, pretending not to be embarrassed. This was stupid. Why is he so stupid, he wonders. What the hell.
"I learned how to make them recently. I had extra."
These are both true things, but the explanation is misleading. He learned to make them so he could make them for people. He had extra after he made these ones, specifically today, for Reiner's birthday. He just can't be straightforward about it because he's Eren.
"Where do you wanna go?"
He also doesn't have a knife on him this time, but they both know that doesn't matter. He keeps his nails long these days to avoid having to bite, but...they're a threat just be existing. Eren isn't scared of that threat. But he's also not especially worried about it, not today. Is this a truce? It has to be, right? No one just goes on a date with an outright enemy. Probably.
Eren shrugs and looks off across the street, pretending not to be embarrassed. This was stupid. Why is he so stupid, he wonders. What the hell.
"I learned how to make them recently. I had extra."
These are both true things, but the explanation is misleading. He learned to make them so he could make them for people. He had extra after he made these ones, specifically today, for Reiner's birthday. He just can't be straightforward about it because he's Eren.
"Where do you wanna go?"
I wanted to talk to you about something. Do you wanna meet or do you mind texting?
It's nothing too serious if this is a bad time.
[Please say it's a bad time. He might regret asking about this particular thing. But he's now curious.]
It's nothing too serious if this is a bad time.
[Please say it's a bad time. He might regret asking about this particular thing. But he's now curious.]
I'm not busy. If it's not serious text is fine but you can come over if you want.
[ RIP both of them. ]
[ RIP both of them. ]
[Ultimately he decides it's less awkward if they stay on text. Still awkward, but less so.]
I talked with Reiner. About you and him. But he was drunk so I wanted to check.
What's going on between you two?
I talked with Reiner. About you and him. But he was drunk so I wanted to check.
What's going on between you two?
[ He just stares at his phone for like a full minute. And then doesn't answer the question. Why would he do that? ]
What did he say?
What did he say?
[Stop dodging the question, jerk!!]
Well, he praised you in all sort of ways, but then he started saying it's complicated and that you deserve better than him. You know, he's a pretty sad drunk.
But it does sound like he likes you a lot. At least physically.
Well, he praised you in all sort of ways, but then he started saying it's complicated and that you deserve better than him. You know, he's a pretty sad drunk.
But it does sound like he likes you a lot. At least physically.
[ For a long stretch of minutes, he leaves this on read. He considers leaving it on read forever and refusing to deal with whatever the fuck this is.
He could almost laugh, though. Reiner saying he deserves better. He knows that's not true. Of the two of them, he's the worse one, though they're the same in so many ways. ]
What did he say about me? Or should I just not ask.
He wasn't sad when he wrote me drunk.
He could almost laugh, though. Reiner saying he deserves better. He knows that's not true. Of the two of them, he's the worse one, though they're the same in so many ways. ]
What did he say about me? Or should I just not ask.
He wasn't sad when he wrote me drunk.
I like him too I guess.
[ HE GUESSES. ]
Definitely physically.
[ Surely Jean regrets starting this conversation by now. ]
But it IS complicated. I know the future and he doesn't. I don't think anyone understands me like he does. But he doesn't know that he does. Anyway none of that matters here and now but he's still got some lame ass idea that he has a mission to fulfil. There's no mission here. It doesn't have to matter anymore.
[ Eren knows better than anyone that of course it matters, that they cannot divorce themselves of the things they have done. Still! ]
[ HE GUESSES. ]
Definitely physically.
[ Surely Jean regrets starting this conversation by now. ]
But it IS complicated. I know the future and he doesn't. I don't think anyone understands me like he does. But he doesn't know that he does. Anyway none of that matters here and now but he's still got some lame ass idea that he has a mission to fulfil. There's no mission here. It doesn't have to matter anymore.
[ Eren knows better than anyone that of course it matters, that they cannot divorce themselves of the things they have done. Still! ]
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