[ "You're important to me too." Words that hum through Reiner's body, bringing a smile to his face, his chest warm. Words that he spends that minute between messages reading and rereading, trying to burn them into his memory.
Then Eren's next message comes. Reiner catches that lack of punctuation. It could be a typo. It could be that Eren is typing quickly, forgetting punctuation like Reiner did when he drunkenly texted. It could be nothing at all.
Reiner still makes a note of it. ]
It would be easier for others if I did. I don't know if it would be easier for me.
[ Not that something being difficult has ever stopped Reiner. But then he adds something he could never admit aloud: ]
I don't know how my mind would handle it.
[ What if that knowledge breaks him even more? What if he plummets back into delusions? He's been doing better lately, finding semi-solid ground. He only slips occasionally, not the wild pendulum swing that rocked him when he first arrived in this world. What if he loses hold of that?
What if he starts forgetting what's important? ]
But there are things I want to understand. So, maybe someday.
[ "Maybe." A word that comes with all sorts of added meanings for them.
Reiner wants to understand why Eren is the way that he is now. At the same time, isn't it enough to steal time together? Isn't it enough to discover more about each other here and now? ]
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Then Eren's next message comes. Reiner catches that lack of punctuation. It could be a typo. It could be that Eren is typing quickly, forgetting punctuation like Reiner did when he drunkenly texted. It could be nothing at all.
Reiner still makes a note of it. ]
It would be easier for others if I did. I don't know if it would be easier for me.
[ Not that something being difficult has ever stopped Reiner. But then he adds something he could never admit aloud: ]
I don't know how my mind would handle it.
[ What if that knowledge breaks him even more? What if he plummets back into delusions? He's been doing better lately, finding semi-solid ground. He only slips occasionally, not the wild pendulum swing that rocked him when he first arrived in this world. What if he loses hold of that?
What if he starts forgetting what's important? ]
But there are things I want to understand. So, maybe someday.
[ "Maybe." A word that comes with all sorts of added meanings for them.
Reiner wants to understand why Eren is the way that he is now. At the same time, isn't it enough to steal time together? Isn't it enough to discover more about each other here and now? ]