If Eren could hear Reiner's thoughts, his unanswered questions, he would say that higher ups just don’t give a shit about things like that. He doesn't think Marley planned to starve them, but if they all starved then wouldn't that save them the effort of coming to kill everyone? That's always been their plan as far as Eren knows, coming and murdering every single person on the island.
Joke's on them, isn't it. Maybe if they hadn't been so intent on that, Eren's genocide would never have to happen. Sure, whatever, the sins of their ancestors and all, but he's so tired of being beholden to what a bunch of dead people did. He doesn't care about the dead, unless it's people he personally lost. He barely cares about the living. Humanity as a whole only mattered to him when he thought the people in the walls were the only ones left. Even now, when he actively does not want to go home and kill everyone, he does not care about them.
Reiner doesn't know that, though couldn't he guess? Eren's apathy is something he still wears easily.
Whether or not he would answer about his own life is impossible to say; even he can't predict his own actions anymore. He knows a little about Reiner's life, gleaned from observation or whatever wild ass memory thing he has going on. The ins and outs, though? Those are a mystery, and one he doesn't ask about. If he asks, he opens a door he's not sure he can close again.
The teleporter is always strange. He wonders if Hange has learned how it works yet. Of course Eren doesn't really care, doesn't have a head for that kind of thing, but magic is so weird. This is more structured than the nebulous travel of Folkmore, but also more jarring at times.
Eren watches Reiner bring his hand to his lips, like he'd done in the kitchen, but less fraught. Less cold. Reiner's mouth against his skin for a brief second is hot, like it should be, like he wants (needs) it to be. He's staring, he realises, eyes wide, not blank and distant. This kind of touch might keep him from turning to stone, but it also serves another purpose: grounding. It's harder to get lost this way.
"It never does," he agrees, almost absently, still focused on the wrong things.
Reiner starts to walk and Eren follows, catching up to walk side by side. Isn't this what people on dates do, walk through cherry blossoms with their fingers laced together as if they've never tried to murder each other, never caused blood and pain? Levi and Hange want him to be normal. Would this count, or would they question him because of who he's with? Would Hange have some inane thing to say about safety like on that app that he likes to pretend he forgot about (that he hopes Hange forgot about, or would they just be happy for him?
Happy for them, the small bit of a normal life they can hold on to while they play pretend in the eternal spring air.
Eren doesn't remember happiness. He's not sure he wants to. Remembering happiness only makes the other things feel worse. He'll settle for neutrality.
"Food and then this ice cream thing?" he suggests.
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Joke's on them, isn't it. Maybe if they hadn't been so intent on that, Eren's genocide would never have to happen. Sure, whatever, the sins of their ancestors and all, but he's so tired of being beholden to what a bunch of dead people did. He doesn't care about the dead, unless it's people he personally lost. He barely cares about the living. Humanity as a whole only mattered to him when he thought the people in the walls were the only ones left. Even now, when he actively does not want to go home and kill everyone, he does not care about them.
Reiner doesn't know that, though couldn't he guess? Eren's apathy is something he still wears easily.
Whether or not he would answer about his own life is impossible to say; even he can't predict his own actions anymore. He knows a little about Reiner's life, gleaned from observation or whatever wild ass memory thing he has going on. The ins and outs, though? Those are a mystery, and one he doesn't ask about. If he asks, he opens a door he's not sure he can close again.
The teleporter is always strange. He wonders if Hange has learned how it works yet. Of course Eren doesn't really care, doesn't have a head for that kind of thing, but magic is so weird. This is more structured than the nebulous travel of Folkmore, but also more jarring at times.
Eren watches Reiner bring his hand to his lips, like he'd done in the kitchen, but less fraught. Less cold. Reiner's mouth against his skin for a brief second is hot, like it should be, like he wants (needs) it to be. He's staring, he realises, eyes wide, not blank and distant. This kind of touch might keep him from turning to stone, but it also serves another purpose: grounding. It's harder to get lost this way.
"It never does," he agrees, almost absently, still focused on the wrong things.
Reiner starts to walk and Eren follows, catching up to walk side by side. Isn't this what people on dates do, walk through cherry blossoms with their fingers laced together as if they've never tried to murder each other, never caused blood and pain? Levi and Hange want him to be normal. Would this count, or would they question him because of who he's with? Would Hange have some inane thing to say about safety like on that app that he likes to pretend he forgot about (that he hopes Hange forgot about, or would they just be happy for him?
Happy for them, the small bit of a normal life they can hold on to while they play pretend in the eternal spring air.
Eren doesn't remember happiness. He's not sure he wants to. Remembering happiness only makes the other things feel worse. He'll settle for neutrality.
"Food and then this ice cream thing?" he suggests.