[ Eren doesn't actually know what's better. For Marco, there's literally nothing he can do. He's been dead since before they knew fuck all about the world. For Mikasa and Jean, especially Mikasa, it might hurt worse.
Eren as he is hasn't told Mikasa he hates her. But he knows it happens. He planned on what he was going to say to sever that tie for months, the lies he would spin, the way he would cut himself open literally and figuratively to hurt one of the people he loves the most in all the world. Mikasa as she is here will never have to hear those words.
In Marco's shoes or in Mikasa's, though, Eren thinks he would also want to know. Even if the future is too horrible to imagine, to look at, he wouldn't be able to resist knowing. Is that part of the issue here? Maybe! There's a lot going on involving Eren and knowing too much about too many things (and too little about others) and the end of the world. ]
Even if you could live again, this place is better. For all of us.
[ Eren doesn't really understand the Paths or know all of that yet, either, though now he comes closer to really getting it. There are still holes, the only things he doesn't care to chase down and sort out now. All those unknowns lead to is the worst possible outcome. ]
I know what happens. But like I said, I walked away. I had a chance to leave and that's what I did. It was the only thing I could ever find to do.
You should have gotten to live a long life too, though. I'm sorry you didn't get that. I hope you get it now.
[ This apology isn't as remarkable as some of the other things he's said to people recently, because Marco's death is one that really isn't Eren's fault. He didn't cause it directly or indirectly. That one's on Reiner and Bertholdt and Annie. There was some level of guilt Eren had felt back when it had happened, but back then he really thought he should be able to save everyone.
Funny how that flipped on its head.
Still, him bothering to say anything that shows his real emotions is something. ]
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[ Eren doesn't actually know what's better. For Marco, there's literally nothing he can do. He's been dead since before they knew fuck all about the world. For Mikasa and Jean, especially Mikasa, it might hurt worse.
Eren as he is hasn't told Mikasa he hates her. But he knows it happens. He planned on what he was going to say to sever that tie for months, the lies he would spin, the way he would cut himself open literally and figuratively to hurt one of the people he loves the most in all the world. Mikasa as she is here will never have to hear those words.
In Marco's shoes or in Mikasa's, though, Eren thinks he would also want to know. Even if the future is too horrible to imagine, to look at, he wouldn't be able to resist knowing. Is that part of the issue here? Maybe! There's a lot going on involving Eren and knowing too much about too many things (and too little about others) and the end of the world. ]
Even if you could live again, this place is better. For all of us.
[ Eren doesn't really understand the Paths or know all of that yet, either, though now he comes closer to really getting it. There are still holes, the only things he doesn't care to chase down and sort out now. All those unknowns lead to is the worst possible outcome. ]
I know what happens. But like I said, I walked away. I had a chance to leave and that's what I did. It was the only thing I could ever find to do.
You should have gotten to live a long life too, though. I'm sorry you didn't get that. I hope you get it now.
[ This apology isn't as remarkable as some of the other things he's said to people recently, because Marco's death is one that really isn't Eren's fault. He didn't cause it directly or indirectly. That one's on Reiner and Bertholdt and Annie. There was some level of guilt Eren had felt back when it had happened, but back then he really thought he should be able to save everyone.
Funny how that flipped on its head.
Still, him bothering to say anything that shows his real emotions is something. ]